mijobooks Chapter 1350 I'm Not That Kind of Person
Chapter 1350 I'm Not That Kind of Person
Chapter 1350 I'm Not That Kind of Person
The air in the locker room seemed to freeze instantly. The bright incandescent lights on the ceiling cast long, straight shadows of the two people, and even their breathing was jarringly clear.
"So... that's how you see me."
Sana Minato stared blankly at Chi Jingyuan, her whole body trembling slightly, as if an ice pick had suddenly pierced her heart, leaving her feeling icy and cold all over.
All the previous doubts and grievances were answered at this moment—it turned out that his long-term estrangement, avoidance, and even deliberate "targeting" were actually because of this.
She had thought about the reason for a long time. Perhaps he was still sad about the breakup, or perhaps he minded the distance she had deliberately kept, feeling that she wasn't a "friend" enough.
She had considered countless possibilities, but she never expected this speculation to be so unbelievable, yet incredibly hurtful.
In an instant, she felt a strong sense of being slandered and insulted surge in her heart, flowing from her chest into her limbs, through her entire heart, and even her eyes felt burning hot.
With bloodshot eyes staring at Chi Jingyuan, Minatozaki Sana immediately opened her mouth, wanting to explain something: "I..."
But when she opened her red lips, it was as if something was blocking her mouth, and she couldn't make a sound.
Because she didn't know how to say it... She suddenly realized that she couldn't deny it with a straight face.
Because Sana Minatozaki herself was very clear about it.
Although Chi Jingyuan's words were excessive, and although they were entirely based on his own perspective and were purely male chauvinistic speculations, he may have completely misunderstood her true feelings when she advised him to break up.
Because that time she genuinely offered advice without any ulterior motives, trying to comfort the other person...
However, Sana Minatozaki herself knew very well that although it didn't happen that time, what about other times?
When she experienced various setbacks, or saw Mina so happy, in the quiet of the night after witnessing it firsthand and experiencing a stark contrast, those immoral thoughts and ideas such as "hoping the two of them would break up" or "what would happen if it were her" did indeed surface in her mind more than once.
Sometimes, images of Chi Kyung-won and Mina getting along would appear in her mind, along with stories she had heard from Mina about the two of them, and the song "Uchiage Hanabi" from that fireworks festival.
Thinking back on all the stories between herself and Chi Jingyuan, and the indelible redemption she felt on the stage lift, some emotions and impulses burned fiercely in her heart.
Sana Minatozaki knew that it was an emotion called 'jealousy', and some immoral thoughts, somewhat dark and despicable, but... she really couldn't control it.
Looking into Chi Jingyuan's eyes, all the words she wanted to say stuck in her throat.
At the same time, when the deepest secret in one's heart is revealed, in addition to intense grievance and discomfort, there is also a feeling of utter shame.
The shame of her secret being exposed, mixed with the resentment of being misunderstood, overwhelmed her like a tidal wave. The composure and courage she had just maintained vanished in an instant, leaving only utter humiliation.
After staring at Chi Jingyuan for a few seconds, seeing the complex emotions in his clear eyes, Minatozaki Sana suddenly turned around and staggered towards the door.
"I……"
Before leaving, Sana Minatozaki sniffed hard, bit her lip and trembled slightly, her voice choked with emotion, but she stubbornly turned back to look at him one last time:
"I'm not that kind of person."
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After Sana Minatozaki turned and left, the locker room door was gently closed, leaving a narrow crack.
As Chi Jingyuan watched the door she closed, his previously composed demeanor slowly faded, replaced by a casual and indifferent one.
He frowned, opened his mouth as if to say something, but in the end it only turned into a soft sigh that dissipated into the air.
Chi Jingyuan hadn't expected things to suddenly turn out this way, or how things had escalated to this point.
He did have a slightly negative impression of Sana Minatozaki because of some things, or rather, some emotions, but he didn't actually dislike her as much as he had just shown.
Although he did have some negative speculations and emotions, they were just his own thoughts, and he never told anyone else. They simply tacitly reduced their contact with Sana Minatozaki...
His breakup with Mina was different from those previous cases where they remained friends after breaking up. Before separating from Mina, he decided to reduce contact with Mina and the people around her, including Sana Minatozaki.
As for Sana Minatozaki, she was actually just going with the flow.
They were just not in contact with each other and were maintaining a polite facade. What Chi Jingyuan thought in his heart was his own business, and he hadn't told anyone else... Who knew that today, Minatozaki Sana suddenly rushed up to him like a madwoman and asked him a nonsensical question like "You look down on me," which annoyed and angered Chi Jingyuan.
Now that things have turned out this way, it will probably be very difficult to maintain contact in the future.
However, it doesn’t matter anymore.
Chi Jingyuan took one last look at the crack in the door that wasn't completely closed, sighed, shook his head, turned around, and walked towards a place from the past, a thought popping into his mind.
However, as these words surfaced in his mind, he felt a sense of heaviness in his heart, which did not make him feel relaxed.
Really, it doesn't matter...?
He raised his hand to take off his sweat-soaked shirt, mechanically picked up a clean T-shirt and put it on, but his thoughts drifted uncontrollably back to the conversation they had just had. The resentment in Minatozaki Sana's red-rimmed eyes, the grievance in her clenched fists, and the stubbornness and vulnerability hidden in her eyes when she said "I'm not that kind of person" at the end, all replayed in his mind again and again.
In that instant, a muffled thud suddenly came from behind.
"boom!"
The door slammed against the wall, making the keys on the locker rattle and interrupting all his thoughts.
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The corridor tiles were chillingly cold. When Sana Minatozaki walked barefoot on them, each step felt like stepping on shattered ice. The chill crept up her feet, but it couldn't mask the pain in her heart.
Leaving the locker room, Sana Minatozaki walked aimlessly, not knowing where she was going. Her bare feet felt cold and hard on the ground, and every step felt so heavy.
She truly hadn't expected it; so that was the reason...
Chi Jingyuan's words just now were like needles chilled to the bone, piercing my heart again and again, leaving behind a dense, persistent pain.
Bringing myself back to reality from my daze, I realized that tears were already streaming down my cheeks. I mechanically reached out and wiped away the tears that had somehow slipped down my face.
As if venting his frustration, he kept wiping and rubbing his eyes and face with the back of his hand, so hard, but to no avail. His eyes and cheeks turned red from rubbing, but the more he wiped, the more tears he shed.
But as tears slid down her cheeks to her chin, and as they passed her lips, tasting the salty bitterness within, she inhaled through her nose, and her lips involuntarily curled up slightly, revealing a smile that was even uglier than crying, filled with indescribable heartache.
Sana Minatozaki laughed self-deprecatingly.
She has always been a very confident person, always thinking that she is good-looking, has a sunny personality, and is very enthusiastic towards people... so she has always thought that she is a very good person in the eyes of others.
Sana is such an angel, all her friends love her!
However, she never expected that... in Chi Jingyuan's heart, she was such a dark, despicable, and jealous person.
This blow is truly indescribable.
No matter how hard she tried to force the corners of her mouth up, they quickly lost their momentum, as if being pushed along by tears. In no time, they slowly drooped down, a deep, aggrieved downward turn, losing all strength to lift them.
Sana Minatosaki suddenly felt a little regretful. If she hadn't been so impulsive and rushed in front of him uncontrollably, maybe none of this would have happened. Everything would still be the same as before. Although they didn't communicate much, at least on the surface, things were still going well.
She wouldn't get such a cruel answer either.
Beyond the slight regret, there was an intense, heart-wrenching sense of grievance.
Although Chi Jingyuan didn't say anything more after that, his eyes had already said enough.
Just as she was about to explain, his eyes seemed to have already anticipated her; his pupils seemed to say:
'Do you think I didn't understand what you meant back then?'
'Falling in love with your best friend's boyfriend, is it just jealousy?'
Although Chi Jingyuan didn't say anything, she could almost feel that his gaze had utterly belittled her to the core, as if she had been trampled into the mud.
She was so suffocated that she couldn't breathe at all.
Amidst the grievances and sadness, a trembling, intense, and unstoppable anger ignited like wildfire.
I was clearly trying to be helpful and give you advice, so why would you think of me like that?
If someone else saw it that way, she would be sad, but she wouldn't care so much.
But... he was the person she had liked for a long time, someone with a different meaning.
What gives him the right to say something like "Do you like me?" in such a calm and arrogant way?
And you're talking about 'feelings'? What gives you the right to say that?
What if you're mistaken?
Even if you're right... what gives you the right to think that way about me? To speculate about me like that?
So what if I like you? What gives you the right to look at me like that?
Sana Minatosaki had no idea where she was, and the tears in her eyes wouldn't stop no matter how much she wiped them away.
Her previous deliberate ignoring of him, his gaze at the banquet... and those heart-wrenching words from Chi Jingyuan just now kept flashing before her eyes.
Then, all the work pressure, the harassment from seniors and suitors, the stark contrast between myself and Tzuyu, the company's indifference, the manager's lectures and disdain... all of it, all the negative emotions, surged up at that moment.
The hand that was wiping away tears had somehow clenched into a fist, the sobbing breaths had become heavy, the chest heaving violently, and the resentment and grievances in her heart were completely out of control, constantly attacking the line called 'reason'.
What gives you the right!
The grievances, after being nurtured and mixed with emotions that had been suppressed for a long time, naturally developed into uncontrollable anger after a very short period of brewing.
All the affection and longing that Chi Jingyuan once held for her were now suppressed by overwhelming negative emotions, and she was consumed by anger and grief.
She really wanted to rush up to him right now, punch him hard, teach him a lesson, and vent all the grievances and heartache she had received from him, the company, her agent, and others during this time.
Regardless of whether it was caused by him, regardless of whether it was related to him or not, and regardless of whether he was a senior, a chaebol, or a relative or friend, etc.
She just wanted to vent the pressure and emotions that her small body could no longer bear.
Then tell him, 'I'm not that kind of person.'
'bang'
With a soft, crisp sound, emotions surged through my mind, and the thread in my heart suddenly snapped.
Sana Minatozaki slowly stopped walking. After a brief hesitation, she turned around and looked towards the place she had just been.
Rushed over.
.........
"boom!"
A loud crash startled Chi Jingyuan, who was still lost in thought about what had just happened, and the T-shirt he had just picked up fell to the ground with a "thud".
He turned his head, his eyes still showing a hint of annoyance at being interrupted, but the moment he saw the doorway, his pupils suddenly contracted:
The door, which had been gently closed and left a crack, was kicked open with a thud as it slammed against the wall. Standing in the doorway was none other than Sana Minatozaki, who had left just minutes before with red eyes.
Her eyes were swollen like walnuts, with tear stains still clinging to the corners. Her cheeks were marked with faint red marks from fingernails, and her lower lip was bitten so hard it was almost bleeding. Her eyes, which had been moist, now seemed to be burning with fire as she stared at him without blinking. They were filled with grievance, anger, and resentment at being misunderstood, as if she wanted to pour out all the pent-up emotions she had been suppressing lately.
She was still wearing that form-fitting yoga outfit, the tight fabric wrapping around her body that rose and fell with her rapid breathing. The lines of her neck, shoulders, and chest trembled and undulated incessantly, and even her fingertips were shaking uncontrollably.
Chi Jingyuan subconsciously glanced down at Minatozaki Sana's feet... Kicking the door open like that would be fine if she were wearing shoes, but if she were barefoot, the impact would definitely be unpleasant... But Minatozaki Sana didn't seem to feel the pain at all.
Then he couldn't help but frown and glance at his clothes that had fallen to the ground and his bare upper body... Chi Jingyuan was changing his clothes, and he hadn't even put on his shirt yet, when this girl suddenly barged in.
"What's wrong now, Sana..."
Chi Jingyuan wanted to tell her to go out first, but before he could finish speaking, Minatozaki Sana bit her lip and rushed over like a wounded, abandoned puppy.
"Bang~"
Without uttering a single unnecessary word, Minatozaki Sana clenched her fist and slammed it into his chest. Her tightly clenched fist held no force, carrying a reckless and ruthless strength, and she smashed it hard into Chi Jingyuan's chest.
I'll update later tomorrow.